Cravings? I’ve got ’em. I crave a bite of something sweet and creamy while I cook. I crave chocolate and nuts. I crave sugar and butter and cream. Late at night I crave a sandwich.
Freud would say I have an oral fixation.
I used to smoke. I smoked cigarettes for 18 years.
And, can I just take a moment to marvel that I can say that I did something for 18 years! And I haven’t even done it for almost a decade. That’s a weird circumstance to find oneself in.
OK, so, I’m not getting any younger and I used to smoke for a really long time. While I didn’t have trouble quitting – I quit once, made the decision to do it and did and never looked back – I do still have the physical urge for ritualized oral satisfaction.
Mind out of the gutter please! I’m being serious here.
I think part of my overeating problem is, in part, the fact that I love to prepare something tasty and sit down and eat it but not so much because I’m hungry, or I desire a particular taste. I believe one one hand I want my mouth to be doing something and on the other I want to be participating in a ritual.
Perhaps I need a soother. Or chewing gum.
For now, I carry around a mason jar filled with cold, clear water. I take a sip. I swirl it over my tongue and around my mouth and then I swallow. I take a deep breath and more on.
Nearly a decade on and I still have the physical urge to do something similar to smoking. How long will it take to alter this craving to eat extra stuff?